[Oh... Oh no. He may have messed this up. He has no real idea what he's doing here. Had Katsuki been flirting with him? The look on his face just now seemed to suggest he had been and Yoosung put an end to it by stupidly shouting in his face about breakfast.
He takes a hesitant step forward as Katsuki takes a step back, but ultimately nods his head dumbly and watches him return to the bathroom to change.
Biting his nail, Yoosung takes his ARCUS and heads to the living room.
He wants to call Rhel or Nanny and ask what to do, for advice, but they acted more like they could only listen, so... Maybe... Maybe posting to the Libra app? Is it too close to that horrible Zodiac post? Would it seem insensitive? But it had been a week and they all have to go on living their lives...
Okay. Okay he'll do it. This is an emergency anyway! He might really screw this up and Katsuki is his closest friend! He doesn't want to wreck this!
He sits on the couch to begin typing an anonymous message onto the network, pulling the blanket Katsuki had slept under onto his lap.]
[Katsuki takes his time changing out of the costume. Giving himself a little bit of time to run what just happened through his head.
Did he read too much into the way Yoosung acts? He's so bad at this...
Once he's changed he sits on the edge of the tub, fiddling with his phone as he thinks on if there's anyone he could talk to about this. Instead he goes to google and types in 'how to tell if someone likes you as more than a friend?'
He sits and scrolls for a bit through lists that don't help at all. Touching? Smiling? Laughing Seriously? Yeah, Yoosung's done all of that, but so had his first crush and that... had not been what he thought at all.
He's about to put his phone away when he sees a new notification on Libra. A new post. Maybe someone new has joined and he can distract himself for a minute? He opens it up, eyes widening a bit. A how do you know if someone is flirting post!
He hesitates a moment before opening it to give it a look. He scans a few answers but most seem to be advice on how to flirt back. Then he reaches one by user "Beekeeper".
Praise. Compliments. Gentle touches to the face and hands. He thinks of that moment in his dream. Yoosung wiping his tears. And calling him prince. Of Yoosung always taking his hand. Of all the praise and compliments Yoosung heaps on him.
Maybe... he just came on too strong and made Yoosung nervous? Or maybe Yoosung hadn't expected him to flirt back?? Whatever the case... Katsuki really likes him. So...
Mind made up, he pockets his phone, gathers the pieces to his costume and steps out of the bathroom. He moves to sit it on the coffee table, placing the boots on the floor beside it.]
Ever had omurice?
[He doesn't know how to do this. But he's nothing if not determined? If he's gonna do something, he's gonna give it one-hundred percent. If Yoosung doesn't like him back, then Katsuki just... needs to give his all to try to change that.]
cw self-harm thoughts???? Yoosung's a dumbass I'm sorry
[When Katsuki walks into the room, Yoosung straightens quickly and nearly drops his ARCUS onto the floor trying to put it away as fast as possible. Trying not to look like he just made an anonymous post on the Libra app.
He stands up and starts folding the blanket up he'd had in his lap as Katsuki mentions omurice, and Yoosung's eyes brighten.]
Ah! I love omurice... I'm always so bad at flipping it onto the plate though I usually make a mess, ehehe...
[A nervous little laugh at the end there.
He's thinking about the comment that said to give Katsuki what he wants or needs. He's not supposed to ask what he wants or needs though, so he has to start really keeping an eye and ear out for whatever Katsuki most wants. Hmmm...
He does know Katsuki wants to be a hero. Maybe Yoosung should give him chances to come to his rescue? Of course, that's fine when there's danger but when they're safe at home...
Maybe he could burn himself again? It wouldn't have to be intense, just enough to make Katsuki feel like he was helping him, right? Can he pull that off without making it obvious it's intentional though? ...probably not. He's aware of his own limitations here and an actor he is not.]
[He wouldn't try it anyway, even if he did consider it. It's too dishonest for him. Maybe he'll have to find something else Katsuki needs?]
Yeah! I've made it a few times for myself. Ummm, I should have all the ingredients for it, I think.
[He finishes folding the blanket and sets it on the couch, stacking the pillow on top of it.
Noticing Hana coming up to him from the direction of her cat tree, he smiles and picks her up to take her to the kitchen with them. Time for her breakfast, too.]
[Ah, he likes how Katsuki has taken to his cats and his cats have taken to Katsuki. As he walks past Katsuki on the way to the kitchen, he hands Hana off to him, and places a kiss on her forehead once she's in his arms.]
Okay~ I bet Rika is already waiting in the kitchen.
[He heads in there and sure enough she's sitting at the table in the dark with her arms folded, looking impatient when he turns the light on.
Yoosung snickers a little as he walks past her and begins gathering stuff for the omurice. He'll work around Katsuki while he's feeding the cats, and he hums as he cooks, concentrating on the task because he knows if he spaces too much he's likely to hurt himself on accident. Occasionally while he's working, he slips into actual song, a few of the English lines from Don't Know What To Do.]
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do without... You~uu~
[Katsuki has become rather fond of them. He's probably got a bit of a soft spot for Rika especially.
He sits on the floor with them once they're fed, listening to Yoosung hum. But once Yoosung starts singing, his attention is pulled away from the two cats. Watching Yoosung cook and listening to that happy singing. He really is almost ridiculously bubbly. When he isn't crying his eyes out.
It's only when the omurice is done that Katsuki gets up to move closer.]
Okay. Ready to see how it's done?
[Once he has a yes, instead of taking the pan from Yoosung, Katsuki steps up behind him, arms coming around him on either side. Hands circling Yoosung's wrists. He's aware a lot of stuff in romcoms aren't really accurate. But something like this seems reasonable.
Once he's sure Yoosung will allow him to do this, he guides him on how to hold and tilt the pan to get it on the plate with no mess.]
[This is, literally, something he's only seen in stuff like romcoms. He may have had daydreams about things like this, but he hadn't actually expected it to ever happen. And with Katsuki? With Katsuki now? Maybe he hadn't ruined things earlier?
He's definitely not doing this because it's easier to show him this way. There's no way that's true!
God, and the way he's so close, he has to hear the way Yoosung's breathing picks up, maybe even how fast his heart is beating.
Honestly this was probably the worst way to show him this in that he's never going to be able to remember the way their hands just moved to make that happen, he's too distracted by their closeness, by Katsuki's hands holding his wrists, the way he's almost pinned in against the counter and he has the strength of Katsuki behind him.]
K... Katsuki...? What...?
[He turns his head a little, sort of wanting to be able to see Katsuki but also not wanting him to move away. He probably will. They already did the thing he moved into this position to do, right? But, really, he can't think there's not another motive behind this, a romantic one.
[Katsuki doesn't move. Yoosung hasn't asked him to. He hasn't tried to pull away. The only move Katsuki makes is to coax him to sit the now empty pan down.
The initial verbal reaction makes him wonder if he's completely missed the mark. If he's done something weird. Potentially creepy? I mean it's creepy if someone can't take a hint right? And maybe Yoosung was politely trying to express that he was uncomfortable earlier...
But those thoughts halt the moment Yoosung asks if this is his treat.
Okay.
Okay.
Let's try this again.]
If you like it, yeah. It's a treat. Think you deserve some motivation. You're always hyping me up.
[Yoosung does carefully set down the pan when prompted to do so.
He leans back then, very slightly, against Katsuki behind him.]
...I like it.
[What else can he say? What else is he supposed to say to that? He's not sure. There had almost been too much advice on that post in the end and he still feels like he could make the wrong move and ruin this.
Just... Just go with the truth, is what his heart is saying.]
[Yoosung leaning into him like that is a relief. Katsuki lets go of his wrists and instead settles his arms around Yoosung's waist. Hugging him loosely. It would be easy to escape if Yoosung wants to.]
[Yoosung doesn't want to escape. He hesitantly places a hand on one of the arms around his waist, just... Touching. Another point of contact. He closes his eyes for a moment. Breathing.]
My... My heart's racing....
[Still just... Going with honesty. It's what he knows best?]
[He shakes his head quickly, emphatically. Which is... Not a verbal confirmation, but maybe close enough?
Or maybe...
Yoosung drops his hand and turns quickly in Katsuki's hold in order to throw his own arms around Katsuki, hands on his back, hugging him, dropping his forehead to his shoulder so he can sort of hide his blushing face there.
He's trying not to hug too tight because he doesn't want it to be too much for Katsuki either, but... It's difficult to hold back now.]
[Yoosung's head shoots up immediately, eyes wide.]
No!!
[Whoops. He smiles apologetically and shakes his head.]
No, I. I scared myself because I dunno what I'm doing or how to do it? Anyway I... I dunno, I kinda like when you're intimidating in that way... I mean. That's why I smashed into a gate right in front of you when you were staring down that dumb catcaller...
Mm. Maybe it's a good thing neither of us does? I dunno. I guess some people would say "The blind leading the blind" but... I feel like it's good because maybe we can find our own path together, instead of having to rely on what we know of another path with someone else?
[He tilts his head, and then shrugs, smiling sheepishly.]
Look. I'm... bad at emotional shit. I'm sure you figured that out already. Got a nasty temper too. I'll probably fuck it up. A lot. But if you gimme a shot, I'll give you 100%
[He takes one arm back from the hug so he can reach up and touch Katsuki's cheek.]
If I already know that, and I'm still here, why would I change my mind now? Everything I said last night still counts, you know? Everything I've told you about how I feel has all been true.
So... you don't have to ask me for my heart when you've already got it, okay? You've got it.
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Did... did he come on too strong? Say something weird? Yoosung seemed into it but he sure backtracked fast.
Katsuki steps back.]
Yeah. Sure. Let me go change.
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He takes a hesitant step forward as Katsuki takes a step back, but ultimately nods his head dumbly and watches him return to the bathroom to change.
Biting his nail, Yoosung takes his ARCUS and heads to the living room.
He wants to call Rhel or Nanny and ask what to do, for advice, but they acted more like they could only listen, so... Maybe... Maybe posting to the Libra app? Is it too close to that horrible Zodiac post? Would it seem insensitive? But it had been a week and they all have to go on living their lives...
Okay. Okay he'll do it. This is an emergency anyway! He might really screw this up and Katsuki is his closest friend! He doesn't want to wreck this!
He sits on the couch to begin typing an anonymous message onto the network, pulling the blanket Katsuki had slept under onto his lap.]
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Did he read too much into the way Yoosung acts? He's so bad at this...
Once he's changed he sits on the edge of the tub, fiddling with his phone as he thinks on if there's anyone he could talk to about this. Instead he goes to google and types in 'how to tell if someone likes you as more than a friend?'
He sits and scrolls for a bit through lists that don't help at all. Touching? Smiling? Laughing Seriously? Yeah, Yoosung's done all of that, but so had his first crush and that... had not been what he thought at all.
He's about to put his phone away when he sees a new notification on Libra. A new post. Maybe someone new has joined and he can distract himself for a minute? He opens it up, eyes widening a bit. A how do you know if someone is flirting post!
He hesitates a moment before opening it to give it a look. He scans a few answers but most seem to be advice on how to flirt back. Then he reaches one by user "Beekeeper".
Praise. Compliments. Gentle touches to the face and hands. He thinks of that moment in his dream. Yoosung wiping his tears. And calling him prince. Of Yoosung always taking his hand. Of all the praise and compliments Yoosung heaps on him.
Maybe... he just came on too strong and made Yoosung nervous? Or maybe Yoosung hadn't expected him to flirt back?? Whatever the case... Katsuki really likes him. So...
Mind made up, he pockets his phone, gathers the pieces to his costume and steps out of the bathroom. He moves to sit it on the coffee table, placing the boots on the floor beside it.]
Ever had omurice?
[He doesn't know how to do this. But he's nothing if not determined? If he's gonna do something, he's gonna give it one-hundred percent. If Yoosung doesn't like him back, then Katsuki just... needs to give his all to try to change that.]
cw self-harm thoughts???? Yoosung's a dumbass I'm sorry
He stands up and starts folding the blanket up he'd had in his lap as Katsuki mentions omurice, and Yoosung's eyes brighten.]
Ah! I love omurice... I'm always so bad at flipping it onto the plate though I usually make a mess, ehehe...
[A nervous little laugh at the end there.
He's thinking about the comment that said to give Katsuki what he wants or needs. He's not supposed to ask what he wants or needs though, so he has to start really keeping an eye and ear out for whatever Katsuki most wants. Hmmm...
He does know Katsuki wants to be a hero. Maybe Yoosung should give him chances to come to his rescue? Of course, that's fine when there's danger but when they're safe at home...
Maybe he could burn himself again? It wouldn't have to be intense, just enough to make Katsuki feel like he was helping him, right? Can he pull that off without making it obvious it's intentional though? ...probably not. He's aware of his own limitations here and an actor he is not.]
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I can show you. You know how to do the rest? It's just the plating you need help with?
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Yeah! I've made it a few times for myself. Ummm, I should have all the ingredients for it, I think.
[He finishes folding the blanket and sets it on the couch, stacking the pillow on top of it.
Noticing Hana coming up to him from the direction of her cat tree, he smiles and picks her up to take her to the kitchen with them. Time for her breakfast, too.]
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[Let Yoosung do the actual cooking this morning. He'll just step in to show him how to get it on the plate without messing it up.]
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Okay~ I bet Rika is already waiting in the kitchen.
[He heads in there and sure enough she's sitting at the table in the dark with her arms folded, looking impatient when he turns the light on.
Yoosung snickers a little as he walks past her and begins gathering stuff for the omurice. He'll work around Katsuki while he's feeding the cats, and he hums as he cooks, concentrating on the task because he knows if he spaces too much he's likely to hurt himself on accident. Occasionally while he's working, he slips into actual song, a few of the English lines from Don't Know What To Do.]
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do without... You~uu~
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He sits on the floor with them once they're fed, listening to Yoosung hum. But once Yoosung starts singing, his attention is pulled away from the two cats. Watching Yoosung cook and listening to that happy singing. He really is almost ridiculously bubbly. When he isn't crying his eyes out.
It's only when the omurice is done that Katsuki gets up to move closer.]
Okay. Ready to see how it's done?
[Once he has a yes, instead of taking the pan from Yoosung, Katsuki steps up behind him, arms coming around him on either side. Hands circling Yoosung's wrists. He's aware a lot of stuff in romcoms aren't really accurate. But something like this seems reasonable.
Once he's sure Yoosung will allow him to do this, he guides him on how to hold and tilt the pan to get it on the plate with no mess.]
There you go. See? No sweat.
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He's definitely not doing this because it's easier to show him this way. There's no way that's true!
God, and the way he's so close, he has to hear the way Yoosung's breathing picks up, maybe even how fast his heart is beating.
Honestly this was probably the worst way to show him this in that he's never going to be able to remember the way their hands just moved to make that happen, he's too distracted by their closeness, by Katsuki's hands holding his wrists, the way he's almost pinned in against the counter and he has the strength of Katsuki behind him.]
K... Katsuki...? What...?
[He turns his head a little, sort of wanting to be able to see Katsuki but also not wanting him to move away. He probably will. They already did the thing he moved into this position to do, right? But, really, he can't think there's not another motive behind this, a romantic one.
He asks very softly, cheeks flushed pink:]
...is this my treat?
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The initial verbal reaction makes him wonder if he's completely missed the mark. If he's done something weird. Potentially creepy? I mean it's creepy if someone can't take a hint right? And maybe Yoosung was politely trying to express that he was uncomfortable earlier...
But those thoughts halt the moment Yoosung asks if this is his treat.
Okay.
Okay.
Let's try this again.]
If you like it, yeah. It's a treat. Think you deserve some motivation. You're always hyping me up.
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He leans back then, very slightly, against Katsuki behind him.]
...I like it.
[What else can he say? What else is he supposed to say to that? He's not sure. There had almost been too much advice on that post in the end and he still feels like he could make the wrong move and ruin this.
Just... Just go with the truth, is what his heart is saying.]
I always like being close to you.
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It's weird.
[Unfamiliar.]
But nice. I like it.
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My... My heart's racing....
[Still just... Going with honesty. It's what he knows best?]
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[It doesn't feel like that's the case but a verbal confirmation this is okay would be nice. Then maybe he can try to sort out how to proceed?]
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Or maybe...
Yoosung drops his hand and turns quickly in Katsuki's hold in order to throw his own arms around Katsuki, hands on his back, hugging him, dropping his forehead to his shoulder so he can sort of hide his blushing face there.
He's trying not to hug too tight because he doesn't want it to be too much for Katsuki either, but... It's difficult to hold back now.]
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So we're clear... I'm not fucking with you this time? And I wasn't fucking with you earlier.
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What. What does he say here.
Well, for starters...]
I'm sorry I shouted in your face before...
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No!!
[Whoops. He smiles apologetically and shakes his head.]
No, I. I scared myself because I dunno what I'm doing or how to do it? Anyway I... I dunno, I kinda like when you're intimidating in that way... I mean. That's why I smashed into a gate right in front of you when you were staring down that dumb catcaller...
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Yeah, well, I don't know what the hell I'm doing either? Not like I've got any experience.
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[He tilts his head, and then shrugs, smiling sheepishly.]
I dunno if that made any sense or not.
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[He huffs a little.]
Look. I'm... bad at emotional shit. I'm sure you figured that out already. Got a nasty temper too. I'll probably fuck it up. A lot. But if you gimme a shot, I'll give you 100%
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[He takes one arm back from the hug so he can reach up and touch Katsuki's cheek.]
If I already know that, and I'm still here, why would I change my mind now? Everything I said last night still counts, you know? Everything I've told you about how I feel has all been true.
So... you don't have to ask me for my heart when you've already got it, okay? You've got it.
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Cw: talk of reckless behavior and a near-stabbing
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