[It is helping. The touch and the words, it's all helping. Yoosung's eyes are shiny as he looks at Katsuki's face, but the tears are subsiding as he takes everything in for a quiet moment. Then smiles, a soft expression, admiring.]
Okay... Um. So it's okay to always tell you what I'm feeling? You don't have to feel the same way all the time, or say things back or anything. You can even tease me for my feelings and I'll probably like it because I know from you that's good.
[He brings a hand up to touch one of Katsuki's on his face, gently leaning into Katsuki's palm.]
[Okay. Good. Katsuki relaxes as Yoosung smiles. His own lips quirk up on one side faintly.]
You can tell me shit. I might not always be great about sharing what I'm feeling back. Sometimes I need time to figure it out. It's not always so straightforward for me. But I wanna hear how you feel. And when I figure it out I want you to know how I feel.
[Maybe it's important to say:]
Right now I'm happy. Landed myself a cute boyfriend.
Honestly given the context of their conversation it makes sense. He'd been telling Yoosung to use his face to lull people into a false sense of security. 'Squishy' as a description didn't make sense. 'Cute' on the other hand...]
Are you looking for compliments now? Or just trying to figure out when I started liking you as more than a friend?
[Ahhh, it's just so nice to hear Katsuki call him cute. His heart might explode.
He's definitely making a mental note to wear the cheerleader outfit again sometime though.]
...did you like the skirt?
[Oh. He asked. Yoosung blushes again, though he's still smiling.]
Eheheh... Umm... When you were there after I died and woke up? You were so... strong, and take-charge... and you called me Bright Eyes and-- I dunno...
[That was like, what, the third time they saw each other?]
Though I think I enjoyed you teasing me even before that.
[That makes sense. Hmm, maybe he should invest in more skirts.]
Yeah, I... You felt like a hero. My hero? You helped me focus when I was panicking, helped me redirect myself to helping others. You were so confident too, about going back out into the thick of it...
[There's a dreamy little sigh here. Before he continues rambling, sorry Katsuki.]
Oh! When you gave Rika that keychain! That was such a nice gesture... You didn't have to do that. Mm, and I like any time I can see your arms, I have kind of a thing for your arms... And... I also like your scar...
[He finally trails off on his rambling, realizing he's revealed a lot and blushing harder.]
[That's... wow. Okay. Yoosung has a whole list here. Katsuki is feeling a little overwhelmed with how much Yoosung has seen in him. He absently brushes his thumbs across Yoosung's cheeks where he'd pinched him before lowering his hands.]
I like that you wanna help people. That you don't back down easy. That you... push back if I push you in ways you don't like? When I yelled at you about using that revival power, you pushed back. And it pissed me off? But when I thought about it later, I realized I liked that you didn't just back down.
[Yoosung deserves to know that even if Katsuki isn't quite as deep in this as he is, he's still in here. He still sees things in Yoosung that have made him come to like him as more than just a friend.]
You let me just kind of hit you with all kind of bullshit and let it roll right off but I know if I cross a line you're gonna tell me. And that's important to me?
[It's... freeing. Maybe that's why it's so easy to talk to Yoosung.]
...You're really kind to me. Even when I don't feel like I deserve it. And you make me feel good about the person I am.
[Yoosung's looking at him again with eyes sparkly with admiration as he listens to him, lovestruck smile on his face. It's sort of intense standing here listening to all these things that someone likes about him, he's never had that happen before with anyone, much less someone he has feelings for.]
Katsuki... I really like being with you. Maybe you don't realize you do it, but you always make me feel... Special, like I matter and like... Like my thoughts and feelings matter to you too. You are a good person, Katsuki. I've seen that in you since the beginning.
[He's surprised that somehow he's made Yoosung feel so special. It's not a bad surprise? But he's kind of had his fill of this softness for the moment. It's starting to get uncomfortable for him because it's... new. And new takes time. Not that he doesn't like it. But he casts for something more familiar. Teasing.]
Earlier you said you like my arms. Did you want to give these guns a squeeze? Since treats motivate you?
[Yoosung can sense that Katsuki is getting a little uncomfortable, so he eases off spilling all his feelings for a while. Though asking Yoosung not to be soft would be another thing entirely.
He laughs a little, thinking that Katsuki's just joking because he's uncomfortable, so he backs off physically as well, deciding to turn to take the pan from the counter to set in the sink, and maybe also set the table for their breakfast.]
You keep saying you're trying to motivate me but you gotta tell me what you mean to motivate me towards, you know~
[The space is appreciated. And he's grateful Yoosung doesn't seem disheartened by his need for it? That's good. He goes to grab the ketchup, to finish off the omurice.]
I dunno. Whatever you're aiming for. Whatever it is you wanna accomplish.
[He probably shouldn't answer that with "making you happy," huh?]
I've kinda been wondering if I could get into learning more about Pokemon with PokeGo... I think I might like that even more than the veterinary thing?
[Not to mention, the veterinary thing and even college feels so normal and his life... Does not feel normal anymore. There's this weird disconnect now, and it makes him feel a little crazy trying to pretend everything is normal around people who don't know that everything isn't.]
Mm, me neither. Or a girlfriend or anything. No first date, no first kiss...
[He laughs a little at that, embarrassed as he starts in on breakfast. It's still warm, thankfully. Their intermission of confessions hadn't lasted too long, then.]
[He nods, cheeks flushing, as he picks at his food.
He is a little nervous about it, though, after Zelos told him he probably kissed like a fish or something along those lines. He's afraid he'll be so bad at it that Katsuki will decide he doesn't even want to date him.]
I... Might be bad at it though, since I've never done it...
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Okay... Um. So it's okay to always tell you what I'm feeling? You don't have to feel the same way all the time, or say things back or anything. You can even tease me for my feelings and I'll probably like it because I know from you that's good.
[He brings a hand up to touch one of Katsuki's on his face, gently leaning into Katsuki's palm.]
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You can tell me shit. I might not always be great about sharing what I'm feeling back. Sometimes I need time to figure it out. It's not always so straightforward for me. But I wanna hear how you feel. And when I figure it out I want you to know how I feel.
[Maybe it's important to say:]
Right now I'm happy. Landed myself a cute boyfriend.
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Ahhhh, I think that's the first time you've called me cute~! Usually I'm just squishy, hehe.
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[He gives Yoosung's cheeks a light pinch.]
Squishy is cute. So you're cute.
[He sure did just imply he's been calling him cute when he calls him squishy.]
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So you're saying you've really thought I was cute all along~?
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[Yes.
Honestly given the context of their conversation it makes sense. He'd been telling Yoosung to use his face to lull people into a false sense of security. 'Squishy' as a description didn't make sense. 'Cute' on the other hand...]
Are you looking for compliments now? Or just trying to figure out when I started liking you as more than a friend?
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[Though hopefully Katsuki doesn't ask him when he started liking Katsuki as more than a friend because that answer will be very embarrassing.]
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[He isn't a super touchy person but he liked having Yoosung in his personal space for instance. But what he focuses on right now is;]
Then I saw you in that cheerleader getup. That's when I think I realized I like teasing you because you're cute when you're flustered.
[Unfortunately for Yoosung...]
When did you realize?
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He's definitely making a mental note to wear the cheerleader outfit again sometime though.]
...did you like the skirt?
[Oh. He asked. Yoosung blushes again, though he's still smiling.]
Eheheh... Umm... When you were there after I died and woke up? You were so... strong, and take-charge... and you called me Bright Eyes and-- I dunno...
[That was like, what, the third time they saw each other?]
Though I think I enjoyed you teasing me even before that.
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[He's pretty sure he wouldn't have had the same reaction to another guy in a skirt. He saw Jun cross dressing at the con and had no interest at all.
But he's quickly distracted by that reveal.]
Really? You were into that?
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Yeah, I... You felt like a hero. My hero? You helped me focus when I was panicking, helped me redirect myself to helping others. You were so confident too, about going back out into the thick of it...
[There's a dreamy little sigh here. Before he continues rambling, sorry Katsuki.]
Oh! When you gave Rika that keychain! That was such a nice gesture... You didn't have to do that. Mm, and I like any time I can see your arms, I have kind of a thing for your arms... And... I also like your scar...
[He finally trails off on his rambling, realizing he's revealed a lot and blushing harder.]
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I like that you wanna help people. That you don't back down easy. That you... push back if I push you in ways you don't like? When I yelled at you about using that revival power, you pushed back. And it pissed me off? But when I thought about it later, I realized I liked that you didn't just back down.
[Yoosung deserves to know that even if Katsuki isn't quite as deep in this as he is, he's still in here. He still sees things in Yoosung that have made him come to like him as more than just a friend.]
You let me just kind of hit you with all kind of bullshit and let it roll right off but I know if I cross a line you're gonna tell me. And that's important to me?
[It's... freeing. Maybe that's why it's so easy to talk to Yoosung.]
...You're really kind to me. Even when I don't feel like I deserve it. And you make me feel good about the person I am.
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Katsuki... I really like being with you. Maybe you don't realize you do it, but you always make me feel... Special, like I matter and like... Like my thoughts and feelings matter to you too. You are a good person, Katsuki. I've seen that in you since the beginning.
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[He's surprised that somehow he's made Yoosung feel so special. It's not a bad surprise? But he's kind of had his fill of this softness for the moment. It's starting to get uncomfortable for him because it's... new. And new takes time. Not that he doesn't like it. But he casts for something more familiar. Teasing.]
Earlier you said you like my arms. Did you want to give these guns a squeeze? Since treats motivate you?
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He laughs a little, thinking that Katsuki's just joking because he's uncomfortable, so he backs off physically as well, deciding to turn to take the pan from the counter to set in the sink, and maybe also set the table for their breakfast.]
You keep saying you're trying to motivate me but you gotta tell me what you mean to motivate me towards, you know~
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I dunno. Whatever you're aiming for. Whatever it is you wanna accomplish.
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I've kinda been wondering if I could get into learning more about Pokemon with PokeGo... I think I might like that even more than the veterinary thing?
[Not to mention, the veterinary thing and even college feels so normal and his life... Does not feel normal anymore. There's this weird disconnect now, and it makes him feel a little crazy trying to pretend everything is normal around people who don't know that everything isn't.]
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[Katsuki understands that feeling. Like he should be doing something bigger. But he has no idea what. So he's sticking cyber security for now.]
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[He finishes setting the table and sits down.]
It would be nice to be able to take care of them in some way like that. They probably have Pokemon vets.
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[Actually... there's a thought. A job not existing doesn't mean there isn't a need for it? Something to chew on. For now he shoots Yoosung a grin.]
I'll give you plenty of motivation.
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Gah! You're so flirty now! What an I supposed to say to that?
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[He brings the omurice over to the table so they can finally dig in. He's hungry.]
I've never had a boyfriend before so...
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[He laughs a little at that, embarrassed as he starts in on breakfast. It's still warm, thankfully. Their intermission of confessions hadn't lasted too long, then.]
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[He considers this as he takes his first bite. Chewing and swallowing.]
That something you wanna do eventually? Kiss? Go on dates?
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He is a little nervous about it, though, after Zelos told him he probably kissed like a fish or something along those lines. He's afraid he'll be so bad at it that Katsuki will decide he doesn't even want to date him.]
I... Might be bad at it though, since I've never done it...
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Cw: talk of reckless behavior and a near-stabbing
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