Mm. Maybe it's a good thing neither of us does? I dunno. I guess some people would say "The blind leading the blind" but... I feel like it's good because maybe we can find our own path together, instead of having to rely on what we know of another path with someone else?
[He tilts his head, and then shrugs, smiling sheepishly.]
Look. I'm... bad at emotional shit. I'm sure you figured that out already. Got a nasty temper too. I'll probably fuck it up. A lot. But if you gimme a shot, I'll give you 100%
[He takes one arm back from the hug so he can reach up and touch Katsuki's cheek.]
If I already know that, and I'm still here, why would I change my mind now? Everything I said last night still counts, you know? Everything I've told you about how I feel has all been true.
So... you don't have to ask me for my heart when you've already got it, okay? You've got it.
[Katsuki is not easy to fluster. But that definitely does the trick. His face goes completely pink. It's that "you've got my heart" line.
Because hello??
That definitely is a lot more intense than he was expecting. He's just barely figured out he's interested in Yoosung and Yoosung is already to "you've got my heart"??]
Okay.
[He's catching up but he's not quite there just yet. But he is on the track to it.]
So. What I'm hearing is... you wanna be boyfriends or whatever. Okay. Yeah. Cool.
[It's funny how Katsuki knew that Yoosung was Intense in his emotions but didn't realize that would also apply to... This. Or maybe he just hadn't considered it before.
Well, surprise, Katsuki! Also sorry???
Yoosung feels both very endeared and a little apologetic at the way Katsuki is suddenly red-faced. But also maybe a tiny bit vindicated just because Katsuki has been flustering him for a while now.
Ahh... Even Katsuki mentioning being boyfriends though has Yoosung blushing again.]
Um. Yeah, I'd... I'd really like that if you... If you feel like you're up to that? Even though it's new for both of us?
[Congrats on getting this far. They're still both moving at very different speeds. But at least Katsuki knows what he wants. Partially.
I mean. Cool. They're boyfriends now.
But uhhh... now what? He has no idea. None. Zero ideas what you even do with a boyfriend. All the romcoms kind of end with the couple getting together. And yeah that's... his only frame of reference here.
I mean they usually kiss when they finally get together in movies, right? But oh boy. He is not ready for that just yet. So instead he reluctantly pulls away from the hug.]
[Not gonna lie, Yoosung's dumb hopeless romantic ass was definitely hoping for a kiss like all the romance stories in movies and shows when they confess.
The fact that Katsuki is pulling away and redirecting attention to the food... (They just made it! It's fine! It's still hot enough and even if it wasn't, isn't this still more important than the food?)]
Katsuki, if it's too much, if I'm too much, we don't have to do this... I-I can wait for you. Or-- ah, maybe that's implying too much. Just because you have my heart doesn't mean you have to feel the need to like... A-accept it? Ever, even! I'm okay with being your friend, you know? As long as you let me stay close to you, I... I'm okay...
[Ah, crap. He's tearing up. He hates this. That he does this. He's too much, isn't he?
He quickly tries to wipe away the tears without Katsuki noticing but it's likely a futile effort.]
[Oh shit. He's crying and backtracking. He freezes for a second, faltering. Because, you know, can't exactly ignore those tears this time? Then he's reaching up and framing Yoosung's face with his hands, thumbs swiping at the tears, a bit rough and awkward. But he's trying.]
Shit. You leak like a faucet, don't you? Where's all this coming from, huh? Am I moving too fast? Talk to me, Bright Eyes.
[Ah... It's sweet he's touching his face, wiping at his tears... Though they keep coming.]
The-the opposite. I'm afraid my feelings are moving too fast. I'm always... I'm always too much... For other people... What if I say or do something that makes you wanna leave me?
[Katsuki listens to him, still rubbing his thumbs across his cheeks. It doesn't seem to be helping. But it also doesn't seem to be hurting?]
I dunno what I did to deserve you feeling so intense about me. But I like that you like me so much.
[Maybe his feelings aren't quite as intense yet, but...]
Hey. I picked you too. You get that, right? You're not twisting my arm here. Might not always be great at this relationship stuff. But I'm where I wanna be.
[It is helping. The touch and the words, it's all helping. Yoosung's eyes are shiny as he looks at Katsuki's face, but the tears are subsiding as he takes everything in for a quiet moment. Then smiles, a soft expression, admiring.]
Okay... Um. So it's okay to always tell you what I'm feeling? You don't have to feel the same way all the time, or say things back or anything. You can even tease me for my feelings and I'll probably like it because I know from you that's good.
[He brings a hand up to touch one of Katsuki's on his face, gently leaning into Katsuki's palm.]
[Okay. Good. Katsuki relaxes as Yoosung smiles. His own lips quirk up on one side faintly.]
You can tell me shit. I might not always be great about sharing what I'm feeling back. Sometimes I need time to figure it out. It's not always so straightforward for me. But I wanna hear how you feel. And when I figure it out I want you to know how I feel.
[Maybe it's important to say:]
Right now I'm happy. Landed myself a cute boyfriend.
Honestly given the context of their conversation it makes sense. He'd been telling Yoosung to use his face to lull people into a false sense of security. 'Squishy' as a description didn't make sense. 'Cute' on the other hand...]
Are you looking for compliments now? Or just trying to figure out when I started liking you as more than a friend?
[Ahhh, it's just so nice to hear Katsuki call him cute. His heart might explode.
He's definitely making a mental note to wear the cheerleader outfit again sometime though.]
...did you like the skirt?
[Oh. He asked. Yoosung blushes again, though he's still smiling.]
Eheheh... Umm... When you were there after I died and woke up? You were so... strong, and take-charge... and you called me Bright Eyes and-- I dunno...
[That was like, what, the third time they saw each other?]
Though I think I enjoyed you teasing me even before that.
[That makes sense. Hmm, maybe he should invest in more skirts.]
Yeah, I... You felt like a hero. My hero? You helped me focus when I was panicking, helped me redirect myself to helping others. You were so confident too, about going back out into the thick of it...
[There's a dreamy little sigh here. Before he continues rambling, sorry Katsuki.]
Oh! When you gave Rika that keychain! That was such a nice gesture... You didn't have to do that. Mm, and I like any time I can see your arms, I have kind of a thing for your arms... And... I also like your scar...
[He finally trails off on his rambling, realizing he's revealed a lot and blushing harder.]
[That's... wow. Okay. Yoosung has a whole list here. Katsuki is feeling a little overwhelmed with how much Yoosung has seen in him. He absently brushes his thumbs across Yoosung's cheeks where he'd pinched him before lowering his hands.]
I like that you wanna help people. That you don't back down easy. That you... push back if I push you in ways you don't like? When I yelled at you about using that revival power, you pushed back. And it pissed me off? But when I thought about it later, I realized I liked that you didn't just back down.
[Yoosung deserves to know that even if Katsuki isn't quite as deep in this as he is, he's still in here. He still sees things in Yoosung that have made him come to like him as more than just a friend.]
You let me just kind of hit you with all kind of bullshit and let it roll right off but I know if I cross a line you're gonna tell me. And that's important to me?
[It's... freeing. Maybe that's why it's so easy to talk to Yoosung.]
...You're really kind to me. Even when I don't feel like I deserve it. And you make me feel good about the person I am.
[Yoosung's looking at him again with eyes sparkly with admiration as he listens to him, lovestruck smile on his face. It's sort of intense standing here listening to all these things that someone likes about him, he's never had that happen before with anyone, much less someone he has feelings for.]
Katsuki... I really like being with you. Maybe you don't realize you do it, but you always make me feel... Special, like I matter and like... Like my thoughts and feelings matter to you too. You are a good person, Katsuki. I've seen that in you since the beginning.
[He's surprised that somehow he's made Yoosung feel so special. It's not a bad surprise? But he's kind of had his fill of this softness for the moment. It's starting to get uncomfortable for him because it's... new. And new takes time. Not that he doesn't like it. But he casts for something more familiar. Teasing.]
Earlier you said you like my arms. Did you want to give these guns a squeeze? Since treats motivate you?
[Yoosung can sense that Katsuki is getting a little uncomfortable, so he eases off spilling all his feelings for a while. Though asking Yoosung not to be soft would be another thing entirely.
He laughs a little, thinking that Katsuki's just joking because he's uncomfortable, so he backs off physically as well, deciding to turn to take the pan from the counter to set in the sink, and maybe also set the table for their breakfast.]
You keep saying you're trying to motivate me but you gotta tell me what you mean to motivate me towards, you know~
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[He tilts his head, and then shrugs, smiling sheepishly.]
I dunno if that made any sense or not.
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[He huffs a little.]
Look. I'm... bad at emotional shit. I'm sure you figured that out already. Got a nasty temper too. I'll probably fuck it up. A lot. But if you gimme a shot, I'll give you 100%
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[He takes one arm back from the hug so he can reach up and touch Katsuki's cheek.]
If I already know that, and I'm still here, why would I change my mind now? Everything I said last night still counts, you know? Everything I've told you about how I feel has all been true.
So... you don't have to ask me for my heart when you've already got it, okay? You've got it.
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Because hello??
That definitely is a lot more intense than he was expecting. He's just barely figured out he's interested in Yoosung and Yoosung is already to "you've got my heart"??]
Okay.
[He's catching up but he's not quite there just yet. But he is on the track to it.]
So. What I'm hearing is... you wanna be boyfriends or whatever. Okay. Yeah. Cool.
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Well, surprise, Katsuki! Also sorry???
Yoosung feels both very endeared and a little apologetic at the way Katsuki is suddenly red-faced. But also maybe a tiny bit vindicated just because Katsuki has been flustering him for a while now.
Ahh... Even Katsuki mentioning being boyfriends though has Yoosung blushing again.]
Um. Yeah, I'd... I'd really like that if you... If you feel like you're up to that? Even though it's new for both of us?
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[Congrats on getting this far. They're still both moving at very different speeds. But at least Katsuki knows what he wants. Partially.
I mean. Cool. They're boyfriends now.
But uhhh... now what? He has no idea. None. Zero ideas what you even do with a boyfriend. All the romcoms kind of end with the couple getting together. And yeah that's... his only frame of reference here.
I mean they usually kiss when they finally get together in movies, right? But oh boy. He is not ready for that just yet. So instead he reluctantly pulls away from the hug.]
The omurice is probably getting cold.
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The fact that Katsuki is pulling away and redirecting attention to the food... (They just made it! It's fine! It's still hot enough and even if it wasn't, isn't this still more important than the food?)]
Katsuki, if it's too much, if I'm too much, we don't have to do this... I-I can wait for you. Or-- ah, maybe that's implying too much. Just because you have my heart doesn't mean you have to feel the need to like... A-accept it? Ever, even! I'm okay with being your friend, you know? As long as you let me stay close to you, I... I'm okay...
[Ah, crap. He's tearing up. He hates this. That he does this. He's too much, isn't he?
He quickly tries to wipe away the tears without Katsuki noticing but it's likely a futile effort.]
Shit, sorry!! Fuck...
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Shit. You leak like a faucet, don't you? Where's all this coming from, huh? Am I moving too fast? Talk to me, Bright Eyes.
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The-the opposite. I'm afraid my feelings are moving too fast. I'm always... I'm always too much... For other people... What if I say or do something that makes you wanna leave me?
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I dunno what I did to deserve you feeling so intense about me. But I like that you like me so much.
[Maybe his feelings aren't quite as intense yet, but...]
Hey. I picked you too. You get that, right? You're not twisting my arm here. Might not always be great at this relationship stuff. But I'm where I wanna be.
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Okay... Um. So it's okay to always tell you what I'm feeling? You don't have to feel the same way all the time, or say things back or anything. You can even tease me for my feelings and I'll probably like it because I know from you that's good.
[He brings a hand up to touch one of Katsuki's on his face, gently leaning into Katsuki's palm.]
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You can tell me shit. I might not always be great about sharing what I'm feeling back. Sometimes I need time to figure it out. It's not always so straightforward for me. But I wanna hear how you feel. And when I figure it out I want you to know how I feel.
[Maybe it's important to say:]
Right now I'm happy. Landed myself a cute boyfriend.
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Ahhhh, I think that's the first time you've called me cute~! Usually I'm just squishy, hehe.
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[He gives Yoosung's cheeks a light pinch.]
Squishy is cute. So you're cute.
[He sure did just imply he's been calling him cute when he calls him squishy.]
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So you're saying you've really thought I was cute all along~?
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[Yes.
Honestly given the context of their conversation it makes sense. He'd been telling Yoosung to use his face to lull people into a false sense of security. 'Squishy' as a description didn't make sense. 'Cute' on the other hand...]
Are you looking for compliments now? Or just trying to figure out when I started liking you as more than a friend?
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[Though hopefully Katsuki doesn't ask him when he started liking Katsuki as more than a friend because that answer will be very embarrassing.]
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[He isn't a super touchy person but he liked having Yoosung in his personal space for instance. But what he focuses on right now is;]
Then I saw you in that cheerleader getup. That's when I think I realized I like teasing you because you're cute when you're flustered.
[Unfortunately for Yoosung...]
When did you realize?
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He's definitely making a mental note to wear the cheerleader outfit again sometime though.]
...did you like the skirt?
[Oh. He asked. Yoosung blushes again, though he's still smiling.]
Eheheh... Umm... When you were there after I died and woke up? You were so... strong, and take-charge... and you called me Bright Eyes and-- I dunno...
[That was like, what, the third time they saw each other?]
Though I think I enjoyed you teasing me even before that.
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[He's pretty sure he wouldn't have had the same reaction to another guy in a skirt. He saw Jun cross dressing at the con and had no interest at all.
But he's quickly distracted by that reveal.]
Really? You were into that?
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Yeah, I... You felt like a hero. My hero? You helped me focus when I was panicking, helped me redirect myself to helping others. You were so confident too, about going back out into the thick of it...
[There's a dreamy little sigh here. Before he continues rambling, sorry Katsuki.]
Oh! When you gave Rika that keychain! That was such a nice gesture... You didn't have to do that. Mm, and I like any time I can see your arms, I have kind of a thing for your arms... And... I also like your scar...
[He finally trails off on his rambling, realizing he's revealed a lot and blushing harder.]
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I like that you wanna help people. That you don't back down easy. That you... push back if I push you in ways you don't like? When I yelled at you about using that revival power, you pushed back. And it pissed me off? But when I thought about it later, I realized I liked that you didn't just back down.
[Yoosung deserves to know that even if Katsuki isn't quite as deep in this as he is, he's still in here. He still sees things in Yoosung that have made him come to like him as more than just a friend.]
You let me just kind of hit you with all kind of bullshit and let it roll right off but I know if I cross a line you're gonna tell me. And that's important to me?
[It's... freeing. Maybe that's why it's so easy to talk to Yoosung.]
...You're really kind to me. Even when I don't feel like I deserve it. And you make me feel good about the person I am.
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Katsuki... I really like being with you. Maybe you don't realize you do it, but you always make me feel... Special, like I matter and like... Like my thoughts and feelings matter to you too. You are a good person, Katsuki. I've seen that in you since the beginning.
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[He's surprised that somehow he's made Yoosung feel so special. It's not a bad surprise? But he's kind of had his fill of this softness for the moment. It's starting to get uncomfortable for him because it's... new. And new takes time. Not that he doesn't like it. But he casts for something more familiar. Teasing.]
Earlier you said you like my arms. Did you want to give these guns a squeeze? Since treats motivate you?
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He laughs a little, thinking that Katsuki's just joking because he's uncomfortable, so he backs off physically as well, deciding to turn to take the pan from the counter to set in the sink, and maybe also set the table for their breakfast.]
You keep saying you're trying to motivate me but you gotta tell me what you mean to motivate me towards, you know~
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Cw: talk of reckless behavior and a near-stabbing
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