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YOOSUNG★

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[Yoosung "eep"s when Katsuki feigns like he's going to tickle him, then sighs when he doesn't.

He takes his phone back to look it over himself, and gives a little, half-hearted laugh at what Katsuki says.]

Yeah... Maybe I should just start wearing backless shirts... Might get kinda cold in the winter, though.

[He traces the glowing stone in his device with his thumb, thinking.]

[callmekacchan]

Scandalous.

[A little light teasing. But he's watching Yoosung. That little laugh sounded off... and he looks thoughtful about something.]

You good?

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Huh? Oh... I guess I'm still kinda stuck on... Maybe being an angel. I don't know what that means for me. It's... It's kind of scary?

[He plops back on the mat next to Katsuki, lying next to him, dropping his phone onto his chest as he sighs.]

Am I still dead?

[callmekacchan]

[Katsuki rolls on his side to look at him. He understands exactly what Yoosung means. Exactly what he's feeling.

But there was one thing that made him feel a little more certain he's alive. When Yoosung was feeling his heart beat. When someone else could feel the proof he was alive.

So after a moment he reaches out to rest his palm on the left of Yoosung's chest.]

You're warm. You're breathing. I can feel your heart beating. You seem alive to me.

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[Oh god. Well, Katsuki can probably also feel Yoosung's heart beat and breathing picking up a little, from the proximity and the inherent romanticism of this touch, of feeling his heart.

Yoosung is staring for a minute, wide-eyed.

Correction: he was alive, but Katsuki is killing him.]

I... Maybe that's just because I'm with you...

[No he will not explain that, no further questions will be taken at this time, thank you.]

[callmekacchan]

[He huffs out a little confused laugh. What does that even mean?]

You say weird shit sometimes.

[He moves his hand, wondering if maybe he did something weird? He should explain.]

I get what you mean. That feeling of... am I really alive? Or am I just... somewhere in between? But when you were feeling my heart beat I felt like... I dunno. If someone else can feel it then I'm probably alive, right?

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[At least Katsuki doesn't ask Yoosung what he means. He can just think it's weird. That's fine.

For a second Yoosung wants to hold Katsuki's hand where he'd put it to make sure he doesn't pull it away, but he can't bring himself to do it.

He remembers what Katsuki is talking about, how Yoosung had needed to feel Katsuki's heartbeat while he told him about how he died and got possessed. It's sweet, that Katsuki not only remembers that but also is using that to try and help Yoosung in turn.]

Thanks... It.. it does help, but...

[He shifts, dropping his phone on the mat so he can turn on his side, facing Katsuki. He wishes they were still touching.]

I dunno, I just... I'm starting to feel like I'm not even human anymore... Like I'm becoming something else...

[callmekacchan]

[Katsuki studies his face a moment.]

It's not so bad, y'know? Being 'something else'.

[He used to feel pretty unsure about it. But then Jun told him he was glad the kitsune saved him...]

We're still here. I'm grateful for that.

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[Yoosung looks genuinely confused for a moment, trying to figure out what Katsuki thinks he is if he's not human...? He must mean his kitsune, but Yoosung somehow thought of that as an entity he had to share stuff with, not that Katsuki himself wasn't human anymore. Obviously Katsuki thought of it differently though, and that's more important than any way that Yoosung had interpreted it.]

Mm. You're right. It's just still all new to me so I... I don't know what's happening or what to expect, how much I'm going to change, what will change and when and how... so I guess... That's really the scary part...

[He doesn't even have an entity telling him how everything is going to work, what the deal is. (If that's what even happens during possession, truthfully he doesn't know all that much about it other than what Jun and Katsuki have shared.)

This? It's... It's all guesses. It's all unknown.]

[callmekacchan]

Mm... I can't say how things will go for you. People handle things differently. It took me a long time to even be as comfortable as I am now and I think I still have a way to go.

[He absently reaches out to touch Yoosung's hand because that always seems to be Yoosung's go-to in these moments. Physical contact. Hand touches.]

But I also kind of pushed it down and didn't acknowledge it until I met someone else who was like me. I've made a lot of progress since I started addressing everything. It's still fresh for you.

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[The touch of Katsuki's hand makes him feel warm, and stable... More normal. It's almost more grounding than the hand to his heart? Maybe that's because Yoosung gets to touch back this way, if Katsuki allows it. He shifts his hand to lightly touch the tips of his fingers to Katsuki's.]

It is. I just... Realized I'm really lucky, though, actually... Because I already have someone else who understands. So... I won't be alone in this... Right?

[callmekacchan]

[There he goes with the touching back. Katsuki called it. He lets Yoosung do as he likes, their fingers brushing together. Just kind of absently on Katsuki's end. He likes that Yoosung is so touchy because he can get away with stuff like this.]

Yeah. That's true. I don't mind talking it out with you. And I'd have to be sure it's cool with them, but I know others. If you decide you need more support.

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[Katsuki always seems to manage to do this without even trying, pulling at his heart by being so sweet, whether he knows it or not. He knows Katsuki doesn't think he's sweet, but he's always making nice gestures for Yoosung.

He's also really liking just brushing their fingers together. Such small, light contact, but it's making his stomach swoop pleasantly inside of him.]

...thank you. Um... Maybe for right now, we can keep it between us? I-I'll let you know if I wanna talk to more people, okay?

[callmekacchan]

I wouldn't tell anyone. Just like I won't tell you names unless I clear it with them first. Just making sure you know there are options.

[He gets that it's personal. He isn't about to share Yoosung's secrets. He sits up slowly.]

You good to keep going or should we call it a day?

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Mm, I didn't mean I thought you were gonna tell people without my permission. I just meant... I dunno, I'd rather talk to you if that's okay.

[He sighs a little at Katsuki sits up, and follows suit.]

I dunno. I dunno if this is really anything I'm good at... But maybe if I have wings I can just fly away now instead of having to fight?

[It's at least something he could give a try.]

[callmekacchan]

Yeah. Sure.

[He's good with that.]

You haven't been doing bad so far.

[Just so Yoosung knows.]

You planning to try it? Flying?

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[Yoosung has his doubts about that. He hasn't taken to many of these moves too terrible well. Though maybe part of that also has to do with just being in such close proximity to Katsuki that it's difficult to concentrate.]

I... I probably should. I'm a little worried. If I can't I'm gonna be awfully sad about it but if I can then that's a little scary since I've never done it before and I could crash...

[He's not really afraid of heights or anything, more just afraid of not being able to control his steering and lift and all of that. He could not only hurt himself but potentially others too if he's not careful? (Provided that he even can fly. Spoilers: he cannot.)]

[callmekacchan]

Just keep it low at first. Don't go more than a few feet. Figure out how to maneuver in the air. The crashes aren't so bad from a few feet.

[That sure sounds like experience. He never told Yoosung he can get airborne with his explosions did he?]

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[Yoosung looks at him, a mix of curiosity and confusion in his expression at that response.]

You've crashed from a few feet in the air before?

[callmekacchan]

Yeah. I can use my explosions to... not exactly fly, but get around in the air? It looked easier in the memories than it actually is.

[Lots of crashing while learning.]

Last month I wiped out from a bit higher. Crashed into a rooftop. Anyway, if you want to test it, we have this mat to break your fall at least a little bit.

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[Considering it, Yoosung looks at the mat, then at Katsuki, briefly chews on his thumbnail.

He gets up finally and concentrates to get his wings to pop out again, and gives them another flap, but...

Nothing. No lift. He looks confused and tries it again, then looks to Katsuki when nothing happens.]

...am I doing this wrong somehow?

[Maybe they're fake or something? Like an illusion? Although, Katsuki had touched them...]

[callmekacchan]

Maybe they're not strong enough to lift your weight?

[I mean... humans are heavy.]

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[Yoosung gives them another flap, this time harder, but still nothing.]

Maybe... I guess they are smaller than ones you see on some paintings of angels. Maybe... Maybe if I jumped off of something? Do you think they'd be big enough to glide even if they can't lift me?

[callmekacchan]

[Katsuki doesn't immediately dismiss the idea. Instead he moves behind Yoosung to check his wings out again. And then he grabs Yoosung around the waist and picks him up.]

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[There's a questioning look on Yoosung's face as he tracks Katsuki moving behind him, mostly expecting him to touch his wings or his back again. What he's not expecting is to have Katsuki's grabbing his waist and to be lifted off the ground.

He squeaks, and blushes.]

Katsuki?!